What It's Like

When I became a mother at 19, I never thought I would become a single mother.

If you would've told me I'd be where I am today 6 years ago, I'd probably laugh in your face and call you crazy. When you think you have everything planned out in your head the way your life is going to go, God has a way of changing things up for the better and all you can do it trust Him and go with it.

I was a stay at home mom for almost two years of Kendrix's life. When I started working again it became one of the hardest things for me to do but every day when I get off work his reaction to me coming home, keeps me going. I know I'm doing what's best for both of us and it's reassuring to know he knows that.

I became a single mother a year and a half ago. The struggles that have come with it have been nothing short of crazy. I work full time and on top of that I raise my wonderful son. Raising a toddler on your own is not easy. I think my favorite thing is to see the crazy come backs he has to say to anything I say. You know, the ones where he knows it's going to get under your skin. My patience has never been so tested in my entire life. All I can do is pray to have the patience I need and boy does it help.

Being a single mother is probably one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Only because it has changed me in ways unexplainable to anyone. I love so much deeper. I laugh a little bit harder. I trust more than ever. I've become closer to God and saved so many friendships. After becoming single, I knew Kendrix needed me now more than ever. It became him and me against the world.

Encouragement, patience, love, compassion are all things little boys need from their moms. I'm not trying to raise my son into a mommas boy but someday he will look back at all the things I did to take care of him or the way I react to things. Someday, I will be the one he compares his future wife to. The only thing I can do is be the best role model for him that I can possibly be. Some of the best actors were raised by a single mom.

Raising a little boy has to be the best thing for me. I mean look at all the fun stuff we get to experience?! We get to play in mud, watch tons of sports, play with cars, and watch movies with a hole bunch of action in it! It can be the most trying thing in the world. The way Kendrix knows exactly what will push my buttons is beyond me but he sure knows how. He knows how to make me laugh and cry by some of the sweetest things he says. Being his mother has been the biggest blessing in my life.

I feel like being a single mom is frowned upon now a days. Do you really think all single moms purposely chose this life? NO! Responsibility sometimes is too much for the other half and that's the end of it. We can't control what another person does or feel but we make the best of the situation and roll with it. All we can do is raise our children to the best we possibly can without the other parties help. I try my best every day to make Kendrix proud and raise him in the direction he should go. A HUGE help for me would have to be my faith and my family. God has helped me through every step in raising Kendrix. The power of prayer is amazing and attending church helps Kendrix learn in more ways than just one. My family and friends help keep me going and push me to do better and I could never thank them enough for all they do.

 

Keep pushing no matter what comes your way when raising a little one on your own. It may not be easy, but it's certainly worth it.  

 

Much Love

~K

 

 

 

 

There is an enduring tenderness in the love of a mother to a son that transcends all other affections of the heart - Washington Irving



a little update

When I became a mother I never thought things would be where they are now. Things honestly changed for the better though. God always knows the plan and I feel like I'm walking in his plan.

There is never a right or wrong time to find or have happiness. Though we should make ourselves happy, others come along and help the happiness as well. When Corey came a long I was NOT looking for anything at all. I think that's when we find the best kind of love is when we aren't looking for it and it just comes a long. I never thought I'd find some thing so great so fast but I'm glad I have and thank God for him every day. I don't have to tell any one how great he is with Kendrix because he just shows it no matter we are or what we're doing. I am not the only one who has found happiness either. Micah is now in a relationship too and couldn't be happier for him and her. I hope she's as good with Kendrix as much as Corey is with him. I think it is important that Kendrix knows the situation and what's going on and be mindful that he is still only 2 years old. We are all happy now and that's all that matters.

It is hard for me to let Kendrix go with his dad any where but that's just a mother thing. I'm used to seeing him 24/7 and now that the divorce is going through it has to be some compromise. I'm the one that has to get that through my head. I'm just glad Kendrix will have multiple happy families to go to.

God has a plan for all of us and his dad and I wasn't in His plan. Now we just have to go a long with our lives always keeping God first and being mindful of Kendrix also. Thank you to all who have stood by our sides through every thing and have never judged us. Co parenting isn't the easiest thing in the world to do but you gotta do it with plenty of communication. It does some times put a strain on some relationships because some do have to put their input but it's always gonna happen that way no matter what. We just try to do the best we can because we can't please every one.

Thanks to all again who understand every thing and stand by us.

Much Love
~K

Is It Wrong of Me?

I could sit here and watch cartoons with Kendrix all day if I could. Watching his innocent little mind play along with Mickey Mouse Clubhouse makes me so happy. He's learning so much every day. I still can't believe he'll be two in two months.As he gets older and shows more love for me each day, it makes me realize a lot.

Sometimes I start to miss good morning and good night texts from someone special. Sometimes I miss going out on dates or snuggling with someone. I sometimes miss the thought of someone loving me for who I am or what I've been through. I start to miss the thought of being cared about by someone else. 

As I start to think about these things I think to myself, I'm being selfish. Selfish for thinking about my own needs before my sons. Is it wrong of me to think I'm being selfish for that?  He doesn't need people in and out of his life. I couldn't do that to him. When I start to miss these things, I know Kendrix does the majority of those things. He loves and cares about me unconditionally and I couldn't ask for anything better! In the future things may change but who knows. I like it being just him and me.

Does that mean I stay cooped up in a house all day just sitting here? Oh heavens NO! I've got a wonderful job that allows me to stay home with Kendrix. I take them places like the zoo, swimming or even climb a mountain.We're trying to sell my moms house right now so the house always has to be clean and with kids we all know that's never easy. I have wonderful friends that I go and do things with or just hang out with them. I also try to go to the gym whenever possible. I'm working on myself right now and always taking care of Kendrix so when would I have time for a guy right now? Not saying things can't change but I'm saying I'm very happy and content with my life.

God has a plan for me and all I can do is trust in Him. I may not ever be able to figure out the outcome or why something happened but I know it's all in His plan. Some days the path is bumpier than others but I pray for strength to stay on the right path. Times of struggle is a time to get closer to God. I know he has a marvelous plan for me and can't wait to see it unfold.

Proverbs 3:5

  Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.




Much Love,
~K

Different things

Some times the slightest things can make you realize a lot of things.

We went and saw About Last Night on Saturday and movies kinda make you re-evaluate things. To me it was my relationship with my husband. Some days we obviously don't have the best relationship and some days it's all fine and dandy. A relationship is something that needs work. Not just from you and not just from him. It has to be from both of you. Being married young brings lots of challenges. 

Trying to please every one has always been my challenge. I love pleasing my husband and it used to be my mom and me for so long, I feel like I still need to please her too. We went to marriage counseling and the counselor said I'm a people pleaser, which is true! I love my mom to death and of course I want to please her but some times I just can't and that's just it. Some times we can't please every one. I know some day Kendrix will most likely disappoint us but it's not going to make us think differently of him. We love no matter the circumstances. That's what God wants us to do.

I look to different people for certain things. Advice wise I usually go to my mom or Micah or my cousin it just really depends on what it's about. But some times we just need to go to the person that it may be about. It'll help so much more and you'll be happier in the end. Sorry I'm just rambling. I haven't posted in a while since it was my birthday and all but I've had a lot on my mind! Thank you for being patient with me. 

Much love 

~K Thompson 

This won't be me anymore..

To be honest, my week was far from perfect. With that being said, I am FAR from perfect.

I learned in the course of this week I can be very selfish. I am sharing these things because I don't want any of y'all to ever go down this path. 

When it comes to my marriage, I don't think about my husbands needs some times. I jump to conclusions way to fast and easy. I probably nag more than I should. Maybe I ask too from of my him. I try to pick fights which I can honestly say I do not know why. It solves NOTHING. 

Seeing all these typed down, I feel terrible. I have got to learn from my mistakes. Which it can be done people. I know if I want to keep my marriage lively and well, some things have got to be done. Am I saying I have an awful marriage? No. It just some times can be dysfunctional at times. Am I saying I'm a bad wife? No not all the time. There are just things I know I can work on. Am I the only one that has to work on things? Probably not but I would never tell him what needs to be changed. Never try and change a person. 

In my eyes, my husband is perfect. Maybe even too perfect if that's even possible. Yes we both make mistakes but who doesn't? We just start to lose ourselves and don't really know how to start back up some times.  

Some thing I need to work on is loving more like Jesus does. Unconditional.Forgiving. I need to start praying more and getting my nose in my bible. I just always want every one to be happy especially when it comes to my marriage. I am very privileged to have a husband like mine. He lets me stay home with our son and watch him grow. He understands that I don't really know how to cook but eats my food anyways. He does little things that just make me fall in love with him all over again.

We were away from each other for two weeks and that contributes to my over reacting and things like that. I just start to miss him and hope he feels the same way I do. That's what scares me most is the unknown. I just have to trust him and trust God that every thing is always going to be okay.

With all this being said, don't judge me. I'm a young married mother with a hectic life. I will continue to strive to be the best wife and mother I can be. I refuse to be the reason why our marriage ever suffers. Don't be the reason for anything. Fights, drama ANYTHING. Do your best to be the best for him. You made vows so cherish them and abide by them. Love your spouse like The Lord loved his son. Don't forget to give him attention just like you do your children. Be the one he fell in love with.

Much Love

~K Thompson

When in Doubt...

Pray it Out & Turn to God.

 

Are you having a tough day or can't seem to stop stressing over little things or even big things? I know I do sometimes and have family that does a lot. My solution, turn to God. Give him your problems and have faith that He will help you through. Praying all the time helps me in the worst of situations. I have anxiety really bad. Especially when Kendrix came along. I had never been more scared to do certain things in every day life. It had been a time that I forgot about my faith. I forgot about the one who helps me through so much. I'm pretty sure I had never prayed so hard. Praying hels eliminating your mind from the things you're worried about. Trust me.

 

The Lord died on the cross for you and me so we may have hope of eternal life with Him in Heaven. He wants us to strive to be more like Him every day. Praying, praching His word, leading people to Him. He is the reason we are even here people! Your little child sitting in your lap or playing in his room? God blessed you with that child. He blesses you every day with things you don't even realize you've been blessed with! Your husband or wife? Did you ever pray when you were younger to find the one you've been searching for for so long? I know I did. Especially when it felt all my hopes and dreams were just shattered. I know my husband and son are blessings from God and I thank Him every day for sending them to me. They saved my life.

 

Your little ones will benifit from praying too. My little Kendrix prays all the time with us. It brings tears to my eyes because I know he learned that from watching me. Kids really do watch every thing you do.

 

But seriously people. People need The Lord and it's up to us to lead them there. Praying daily will help you in your day to day struggles. It's actually very theraputic to know you always have someone to talk to. He doesn't talk back but he sure listens. Give Him all your problems and he will help you through them. Don't stray away from the one who gave you life. Be strong in your faith. You know what you're doing. I promise!

 

Much Love

~K

Just some thoughts

My week is about to get so crazy. My mom, aunt, and grandparents are going to Hawaii and I have to house sit here in Oklahoma for two weeks. TWO WEEKS PEOPLE! Two weeks without my husband here with me. It truly sucks. How do some wives stay away from their husbands for weeks or even years?! I'm going crazy and it's only been a few hours! Luckily I've got our little man with me. If your husband has to go away for a while or vice versa how do you cope? I think lots of chocolate is in store for me!

I was reading a blog earlier about how before we became mommies we were his. His as in your husband. That post to me really hit me because it's true. We get so caught up in taking care of and giving our full attention to our children, we forget about the man who helped give you those precious children. Our husband's deserve as much attention that we give our children. That's something I totally need to work on.

Sorry for a short post but I haven't posted in a while cause I'm computer less this week. So it's all off my phone. :) have a good night everyone! 

Much love

~K