Before & When I Became A Mother.

Before I became a mother, I never knew what true love was.

Before I became a mother, I was lost with no direction in life.

Before I became a mother, I never knew sleepless nights.

Before I became a mother, I never knew the pain and suffering I had to go through to get you in this world.

Before I became a mother, I never had been drooled on, spit up on, or thrown up on.

Before I became a mother, I had never been peed on or pooped on multiple times.

Before I became a mother, I never knew the smile on an innocent face could be so beautiful.

Before I became a mother, I never knew what my mom had to go through to raise me, but now I know.

 

Now that I'm a mother, I wouldn't trade any of it for the world.

Watching you grow up and learn new things every day is so rewarding to me. Watching your eyes light up when you learn something new. Watching you run around the house like a maniac. Watching you love the dog and cat and the way you give kisses.

Now that I'm a mother, I've learned a lot about myself and other things. Never give up on yourself or your child. Always fight for what you love. Where you invest your time and love, you invest your life. Always rinse out bottles or they'll be super hard to wash. Always pull the chest strap in the car seat over the chest. Always baby proof the house when they start getting mobile. I've learned that I was walked over a lot but now I finally have the courage to do stuff about it.

Now that I'm a mother, I love deeper.

Now that I'm a mother, I cry when you cry and am in pain when you're in pain.

Now that I'm a mother, I smile when you smile and laugh when you laugh.

Now that I'm a mother, I've grown up a lot. Your needs are greater than my own.

Now that I'm a mother, I want to do every thing for you.

Now that I'm a mother, I never want to let you down.

I hope one day you can understand why I did things the way I did. Why your dad and I didn't work out and why I even left in the first place. I hope I make you proud every day. When you cry for momma, know I'm always right there. I'm never far away. When you give me kisses or sign I love you, you bring tears of joy to my eyes. Know that I always love you son no matter what.

 

 

Much Love!

~K, the mother of one. <3

07/24/2012

Kendrix DeWayne Thompson

9lbs 14oz 22in.

You've blessed me beyond measure, son!

 

Its been a while!

Things in my life the past few months turned hectic really fast. Faster than I thought humanly possible. I am now a single mom to my amazing son. I will not go into details as to why his father and I didn't work out but if you really wanna know, you may contact me. I did what I thought was best for my son and me. I never thought I would have the strength to leave but what he was doing was so wrong. I can honestly say though, that I am much happier being back home in Oklahoma where I am loved and wanted.

Kendrix and I moved back about a month ago and since being back things have looked up for the both of us. I got an amazing job opportunity that I'm very blessed to have. I watch two other kids besides my own at my house. I am able to stay at home with Kendrix and get paid for it. Kendrix gets along with both kids very well, which I was never worried about. All the kids are very kind to each other and they make it easy to watch them. We have been trying to get my moms house sold so she can move in with my grandparents and Kendrix and I will get an apartment! God has given me amazing strength to get through this tough time. 

I never thought I would ever be a single mom. God had a different plan for me in life and all I can do now is trust him. In doing so I've been very blessed since being back. When you look at your life, make sure you never take anything for granted because it can be gone in the blink of an eye. I'm very thankful for my family and friends that have helped me though this transition in my life. I cannot thank y'all enough. I have mended friendships I never would've thought could be mended. I've gone to 4 Thunder games since being back and loved every minute of it. I've also been going to the gym when Kendrix falls asleep at night. Things have really been great for us. All of these things would've never happened if I would've never left. I'm not saying I'm thrilled that things happened the way they did, but there's nothing I can do about his actions. I now only have to worry about my own and my sons.

 

Thank you everyone for your kind thoughts and prayers being sent our way. Thank you also to everyone that has been behind us every step of the way. Y'all are awesome!

 

Much Love!

~K&K