I have been a terrible mom

Not in the sense that some of you are thinking.

I have been a terrible mom by not paying attention to him. Kendrix did something so cool for the first time and he looked to me to see if I was watching and what do you know I wasn't. I was on the stupid phone. It broke my heart to see Kendrix's face after he saw I wasn't watching. Nothing on my phone is more important than spending quality time with my son. Lots of people are guilty of this. We only get these times once. Today is already gone and you feel like you didn't even get to enjoy it. Quality time with our kids is so important in their development. Just don't forget to pay attention to your kids. Like I said I am guilty as much as the next and need to work on it myself but I just gotta think about how big Kendrix is and won't get the crazy 3 year old years again so make them count!

I am a terrible mom by not explaining things deeply to Kendrix.

He asked me the other day why I have to go to work. I explained it as mommy has to go to work because our new house costs money. He took it and understood it and went to school without thinking about it. When I picked him up he apparently had told his teachers that story and I couldn't believe it. Kids hear everything and replay everything they hear! It was amazing. I'm sure I could have explained it a little better but you have to explain things a way a little kiddo would understand. Kendrix and I laid in the back of the truck and looked up at the moon and stars for a little while one night. I asked him if he knew who made the stars and he said he didn't know. I said God made the stars and a lightbulb clicked. He also membered God made him to be my son. He said those exact words. God did bless me with having him as a son and quality time with him and explaining things to him should never feel like a burden. Questions are healthy for little kiddos. Our jobs as parents should be to explain things to them so they can understand how things and the world around them works. Believe me, it will help when they get bigger.

I just want Kendrix to know and understand I am trying to be the best I can be for him. He is my biggest and by far the greatest accomplishment in my life. He motivates me to do more for us every single day. As a parent I want to be better for him. Think of your kids when it comes to your actions. Think about your kids when it comes to your words and people you hang around. It breaks my heart when parents don't think about anyone but themselves. WE as parents are raising the next generation. WE as parents have the choice to raise our kids right. THINK ABOUT IT...

Much Love

~K

Nothing beats these moments

 

What It's Like

When I became a mother at 19, I never thought I would become a single mother.

If you would've told me I'd be where I am today 6 years ago, I'd probably laugh in your face and call you crazy. When you think you have everything planned out in your head the way your life is going to go, God has a way of changing things up for the better and all you can do it trust Him and go with it.

I was a stay at home mom for almost two years of Kendrix's life. When I started working again it became one of the hardest things for me to do but every day when I get off work his reaction to me coming home, keeps me going. I know I'm doing what's best for both of us and it's reassuring to know he knows that.

I became a single mother a year and a half ago. The struggles that have come with it have been nothing short of crazy. I work full time and on top of that I raise my wonderful son. Raising a toddler on your own is not easy. I think my favorite thing is to see the crazy come backs he has to say to anything I say. You know, the ones where he knows it's going to get under your skin. My patience has never been so tested in my entire life. All I can do is pray to have the patience I need and boy does it help.

Being a single mother is probably one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Only because it has changed me in ways unexplainable to anyone. I love so much deeper. I laugh a little bit harder. I trust more than ever. I've become closer to God and saved so many friendships. After becoming single, I knew Kendrix needed me now more than ever. It became him and me against the world.

Encouragement, patience, love, compassion are all things little boys need from their moms. I'm not trying to raise my son into a mommas boy but someday he will look back at all the things I did to take care of him or the way I react to things. Someday, I will be the one he compares his future wife to. The only thing I can do is be the best role model for him that I can possibly be. Some of the best actors were raised by a single mom.

Raising a little boy has to be the best thing for me. I mean look at all the fun stuff we get to experience?! We get to play in mud, watch tons of sports, play with cars, and watch movies with a hole bunch of action in it! It can be the most trying thing in the world. The way Kendrix knows exactly what will push my buttons is beyond me but he sure knows how. He knows how to make me laugh and cry by some of the sweetest things he says. Being his mother has been the biggest blessing in my life.

I feel like being a single mom is frowned upon now a days. Do you really think all single moms purposely chose this life? NO! Responsibility sometimes is too much for the other half and that's the end of it. We can't control what another person does or feel but we make the best of the situation and roll with it. All we can do is raise our children to the best we possibly can without the other parties help. I try my best every day to make Kendrix proud and raise him in the direction he should go. A HUGE help for me would have to be my faith and my family. God has helped me through every step in raising Kendrix. The power of prayer is amazing and attending church helps Kendrix learn in more ways than just one. My family and friends help keep me going and push me to do better and I could never thank them enough for all they do.

 

Keep pushing no matter what comes your way when raising a little one on your own. It may not be easy, but it's certainly worth it.  

 

Much Love

~K

 

 

 

 

There is an enduring tenderness in the love of a mother to a son that transcends all other affections of the heart - Washington Irving