Before & When I Became A Mother.

Before I became a mother, I never knew what true love was.

Before I became a mother, I was lost with no direction in life.

Before I became a mother, I never knew sleepless nights.

Before I became a mother, I never knew the pain and suffering I had to go through to get you in this world.

Before I became a mother, I never had been drooled on, spit up on, or thrown up on.

Before I became a mother, I had never been peed on or pooped on multiple times.

Before I became a mother, I never knew the smile on an innocent face could be so beautiful.

Before I became a mother, I never knew what my mom had to go through to raise me, but now I know.

 

Now that I'm a mother, I wouldn't trade any of it for the world.

Watching you grow up and learn new things every day is so rewarding to me. Watching your eyes light up when you learn something new. Watching you run around the house like a maniac. Watching you love the dog and cat and the way you give kisses.

Now that I'm a mother, I've learned a lot about myself and other things. Never give up on yourself or your child. Always fight for what you love. Where you invest your time and love, you invest your life. Always rinse out bottles or they'll be super hard to wash. Always pull the chest strap in the car seat over the chest. Always baby proof the house when they start getting mobile. I've learned that I was walked over a lot but now I finally have the courage to do stuff about it.

Now that I'm a mother, I love deeper.

Now that I'm a mother, I cry when you cry and am in pain when you're in pain.

Now that I'm a mother, I smile when you smile and laugh when you laugh.

Now that I'm a mother, I've grown up a lot. Your needs are greater than my own.

Now that I'm a mother, I want to do every thing for you.

Now that I'm a mother, I never want to let you down.

I hope one day you can understand why I did things the way I did. Why your dad and I didn't work out and why I even left in the first place. I hope I make you proud every day. When you cry for momma, know I'm always right there. I'm never far away. When you give me kisses or sign I love you, you bring tears of joy to my eyes. Know that I always love you son no matter what.

 

 

Much Love!

~K, the mother of one. <3

07/24/2012

Kendrix DeWayne Thompson

9lbs 14oz 22in.

You've blessed me beyond measure, son!

 

Its been a while!

Things in my life the past few months turned hectic really fast. Faster than I thought humanly possible. I am now a single mom to my amazing son. I will not go into details as to why his father and I didn't work out but if you really wanna know, you may contact me. I did what I thought was best for my son and me. I never thought I would have the strength to leave but what he was doing was so wrong. I can honestly say though, that I am much happier being back home in Oklahoma where I am loved and wanted.

Kendrix and I moved back about a month ago and since being back things have looked up for the both of us. I got an amazing job opportunity that I'm very blessed to have. I watch two other kids besides my own at my house. I am able to stay at home with Kendrix and get paid for it. Kendrix gets along with both kids very well, which I was never worried about. All the kids are very kind to each other and they make it easy to watch them. We have been trying to get my moms house sold so she can move in with my grandparents and Kendrix and I will get an apartment! God has given me amazing strength to get through this tough time. 

I never thought I would ever be a single mom. God had a different plan for me in life and all I can do now is trust him. In doing so I've been very blessed since being back. When you look at your life, make sure you never take anything for granted because it can be gone in the blink of an eye. I'm very thankful for my family and friends that have helped me though this transition in my life. I cannot thank y'all enough. I have mended friendships I never would've thought could be mended. I've gone to 4 Thunder games since being back and loved every minute of it. I've also been going to the gym when Kendrix falls asleep at night. Things have really been great for us. All of these things would've never happened if I would've never left. I'm not saying I'm thrilled that things happened the way they did, but there's nothing I can do about his actions. I now only have to worry about my own and my sons.

 

Thank you everyone for your kind thoughts and prayers being sent our way. Thank you also to everyone that has been behind us every step of the way. Y'all are awesome!

 

Much Love!

~K&K

Different things

Some times the slightest things can make you realize a lot of things.

We went and saw About Last Night on Saturday and movies kinda make you re-evaluate things. To me it was my relationship with my husband. Some days we obviously don't have the best relationship and some days it's all fine and dandy. A relationship is something that needs work. Not just from you and not just from him. It has to be from both of you. Being married young brings lots of challenges. 

Trying to please every one has always been my challenge. I love pleasing my husband and it used to be my mom and me for so long, I feel like I still need to please her too. We went to marriage counseling and the counselor said I'm a people pleaser, which is true! I love my mom to death and of course I want to please her but some times I just can't and that's just it. Some times we can't please every one. I know some day Kendrix will most likely disappoint us but it's not going to make us think differently of him. We love no matter the circumstances. That's what God wants us to do.

I look to different people for certain things. Advice wise I usually go to my mom or Micah or my cousin it just really depends on what it's about. But some times we just need to go to the person that it may be about. It'll help so much more and you'll be happier in the end. Sorry I'm just rambling. I haven't posted in a while since it was my birthday and all but I've had a lot on my mind! Thank you for being patient with me. 

Much love 

~K Thompson 

Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day to you all! 

It shouldn't take one day out of the year to show how much you care about the one you love. Yes, flowers and candies are a good gesture but shouldn't you get them more than one time a year? Showing you love someone is much more than just flowers or gifts. Your actions say a lot. When Micah wakes up and takes care of Kendrix for a few more minutes so I can wake up. That's a way you can show you care about someone. He knows how I hard I work at times so he does little things like that to show he cares and appreciates me. The same goes for him. I know he has school and practice so I try to get Kendrix to take his naps around the time he gets out of practice. Playing his favorite video game or just giving random hugs or kisses. 

You don't have to spend money on your love to show you love them. I don't think it should take one day out of the year to show how much you love someone. I think it should be shown all the time. Public and private. Yes, Valentine's day is a very special day to some but I've received Micah's love for about 5 amazing years and he never fails to show me he loves me every day. 

The best way he's ever shown his love for me was giving me our son. Last Valentine's day was Kendrix's first Valentine's day and we went to the Ft. Worth zoo as a family and had a blast. This year we don't really have anything planned and I'm perfectly fine with that. I love sitting around and cuddling with my family. You learn to appreciate the little things.

I hope every one has a great day but remember, show the one you love how much you love and care about them every day. Not just on Valentine's Day! It will mean so much more in the long run.

Much Love,

~K Thompson

 

Be The One..

Be the person you were when your spouse fell in love with you.

When we get married and have children, we seem to forget the person we were when we met our spouse. We get so cause up in our wifely or motherly duties, we forget about our husbands. We forget to do the things that made our spouse fall in love with us. For example, the little things. Sending them a text message during the day to let them know you were thinking about them and that you love them. I know when Micah and I first got together, I used to text him every opportunity I got so he always knew I loved him and was always thinking of him. Making him feel special. During the days now, it's just filled with cleaning and making sure Kendrix is taken care of. I don't text him as much as I used to during the times he's away because I just forget. I get busy. It's kinda sad actually. 

We wait so long to find the man of our dreams. Sadly, we when we find him, we stop doing the things we were doing when we fell in love. Guys are just as guilty at this as we are. I think when Micah and I first got together we seemed to go crazy of each other. I was in such amazement with him over every single thing he did to or for me. I would ALWAYS want to be around him. Always would want to talk to him if we were apart. Always wanted to hear him talk, sing, laugh, or smile. Always wanted to feel his huge arms around me. I've strayed away from all that. Now that we got married, I can honestly say I've forgotten to be the woman I was when we fell in love. I want to get back to that.

We need to get back into doing the little things for our husbands. Saying we love you during the day. Kiss him passionately just because. Jump for joy when they get home. Get sad when they have to leave. Get dressed up for him. Get sexy at night. Make him want YOU. Make him remember why he fell in love with you. You'd be amazed how much your marriage or relationship will change. Stop nagging him constantly. I have to take my own advice on this cause I nag a bunch.. Stop bringing up past situations. Stop being insecure with your self. He chose YOU over every one. You married this wonderful man, so show him you love him and appreciate him. This is your life now, with him. Make it the best it can be so he'll never wanna leave. Make him proud to call you his wife. 

Have a fabulous day!

Much Love,

~K Thompson

Love of my life & I, 3 years ago <3

This won't be me anymore..

To be honest, my week was far from perfect. With that being said, I am FAR from perfect.

I learned in the course of this week I can be very selfish. I am sharing these things because I don't want any of y'all to ever go down this path. 

When it comes to my marriage, I don't think about my husbands needs some times. I jump to conclusions way to fast and easy. I probably nag more than I should. Maybe I ask too from of my him. I try to pick fights which I can honestly say I do not know why. It solves NOTHING. 

Seeing all these typed down, I feel terrible. I have got to learn from my mistakes. Which it can be done people. I know if I want to keep my marriage lively and well, some things have got to be done. Am I saying I have an awful marriage? No. It just some times can be dysfunctional at times. Am I saying I'm a bad wife? No not all the time. There are just things I know I can work on. Am I the only one that has to work on things? Probably not but I would never tell him what needs to be changed. Never try and change a person. 

In my eyes, my husband is perfect. Maybe even too perfect if that's even possible. Yes we both make mistakes but who doesn't? We just start to lose ourselves and don't really know how to start back up some times.  

Some thing I need to work on is loving more like Jesus does. Unconditional.Forgiving. I need to start praying more and getting my nose in my bible. I just always want every one to be happy especially when it comes to my marriage. I am very privileged to have a husband like mine. He lets me stay home with our son and watch him grow. He understands that I don't really know how to cook but eats my food anyways. He does little things that just make me fall in love with him all over again.

We were away from each other for two weeks and that contributes to my over reacting and things like that. I just start to miss him and hope he feels the same way I do. That's what scares me most is the unknown. I just have to trust him and trust God that every thing is always going to be okay.

With all this being said, don't judge me. I'm a young married mother with a hectic life. I will continue to strive to be the best wife and mother I can be. I refuse to be the reason why our marriage ever suffers. Don't be the reason for anything. Fights, drama ANYTHING. Do your best to be the best for him. You made vows so cherish them and abide by them. Love your spouse like The Lord loved his son. Don't forget to give him attention just like you do your children. Be the one he fell in love with.

Much Love

~K Thompson

God Has Blessed Me

First off, it's cold. Don't really know if I can think straight this morning. Just kidding. I gotta cause it's only Kendrix and me in the house. My mom finally comes home tomorrow and I'm so excited! I've missed her so very much. Praying for a safe trip back.

Lots of things have been on my mind today. As I'm watching my sweet innocent child run around messing up the house that I just cleaned, God has blessed me with him. God has blessed me with lots of things. A wonderful family, amazing husband, and some pretty awesome friends. The life that Micah and I live, is anything but ordinary. We travel back and forth between Oklahoma and Texas a lot. Probably more than we should. Micah takes on a lot down in Texas. Not only does he have a family he has to care and provide for, he has a 15 hour class schedule, study hall in the evenings, and football on the daily. If you're wondering how our schedules go, it goes something like this. Monday's we're pretty lucky because he has a night class from 6 to 8:50. During the day we pretty much have him to ourselves except for work outs every week day from 12:30 to around 3. Tuesdays and Thursdays he has class from 8 to about 11. Study hall Tuesday nights and Wednesday nights. Kendrix gets naps based around his schedule because I try to ensure Micah gets as much time as he can with Kendrix. On Tuesdays at our library they have a session called Toddler Time. Kendrix and I go to that with one of our friends who has a little boy a few months younger than Kendrix and her husband was also on the football team. Micah also has a couple of online classes. I also have two online classes I'm taking. I usually do my homework when Kenny takes a nap or when every one has fallen asleep at night. So there is a little day in the life of us. Pretty hectic huh?

Although we have a crazy life, I wouldn't trade it for the world. I love being down in Texas because it's our own life. We don't have any one to depend on but each other. Not our parents just us. I've grown up so much since I moved down there a year ago. Most teens my age don't move that far away from home unless they go to college. I did it so my little family could all be together. Like a good mom and wife should do. God has blessed me with this opportunity to grow stronger in my faith and stronger with my little family. I thank God every day for my husband, son and family. My life is awesome and I owe it all to Him.

Don't forget to thank God for the things you are thankful for. 

Thank you all for reading and supporting us.

Much Love,

~K

Just a little silly pic of us :)