Food for Thought

I don't know about anyone else but I like to study people and see how they work. As a single mom who finds dating next to impossible, it's funny to me now how many people are afraid of the C word. COMMITMENT.

I put that in red because there will be some people that look at that word and think of the word death. They think it's the end of their lives as they know it. It amazes me how many people flea from that word.

I've discovered in dating people that may not have been right for me, the factors that play into people's perspective of this word. Some have never seen what a relationship should look like. People don't realize how important good role models are in your lives. Yes, I may have not had that with my parents but my mom always made sure I saw my loving grand parents together or my aunt and uncle laugh and smile together. 

This day and age, nothing about relationships is the same. There is no more dating. Guys don't know to open the door for a woman. There is no more getting to know a person over a dinner. It's over a text message. Now please tell me how that is romantic or actually getting to know a person?

There are voids in people's hearts where they try to fill it by other things. Some people it's material things. Thinking they have to buy the biggest baddest thing to fill what's missing. Some turn to drugs or alcohol. No one is perfect by any means and I am no relationship expert. I can tell you that if you are not ready for a relationship and know it, don't waste peoples time. Be happy with yourself before trying to come and change someone else's life. There are some people in this world that know what they want in life and don't need idiots coming in to screw everything up. You can't be happy with anyone unless you are happy with you. A better you will attract a better next. Stay true to yourself and your feelings. Sometimes you just can't help how you feel and I get that. Just be honest about how you feel and don't hide it just to make someone else happy. Just be happy no matter what the situation is especially with yourself.

 

 

Sorry for the rambling just a lot on my mind. Goodnight world.

 

~K

I have been a terrible mom

Not in the sense that some of you are thinking.

I have been a terrible mom by not paying attention to him. Kendrix did something so cool for the first time and he looked to me to see if I was watching and what do you know I wasn't. I was on the stupid phone. It broke my heart to see Kendrix's face after he saw I wasn't watching. Nothing on my phone is more important than spending quality time with my son. Lots of people are guilty of this. We only get these times once. Today is already gone and you feel like you didn't even get to enjoy it. Quality time with our kids is so important in their development. Just don't forget to pay attention to your kids. Like I said I am guilty as much as the next and need to work on it myself but I just gotta think about how big Kendrix is and won't get the crazy 3 year old years again so make them count!

I am a terrible mom by not explaining things deeply to Kendrix.

He asked me the other day why I have to go to work. I explained it as mommy has to go to work because our new house costs money. He took it and understood it and went to school without thinking about it. When I picked him up he apparently had told his teachers that story and I couldn't believe it. Kids hear everything and replay everything they hear! It was amazing. I'm sure I could have explained it a little better but you have to explain things a way a little kiddo would understand. Kendrix and I laid in the back of the truck and looked up at the moon and stars for a little while one night. I asked him if he knew who made the stars and he said he didn't know. I said God made the stars and a lightbulb clicked. He also membered God made him to be my son. He said those exact words. God did bless me with having him as a son and quality time with him and explaining things to him should never feel like a burden. Questions are healthy for little kiddos. Our jobs as parents should be to explain things to them so they can understand how things and the world around them works. Believe me, it will help when they get bigger.

I just want Kendrix to know and understand I am trying to be the best I can be for him. He is my biggest and by far the greatest accomplishment in my life. He motivates me to do more for us every single day. As a parent I want to be better for him. Think of your kids when it comes to your actions. Think about your kids when it comes to your words and people you hang around. It breaks my heart when parents don't think about anyone but themselves. WE as parents are raising the next generation. WE as parents have the choice to raise our kids right. THINK ABOUT IT...

Much Love

~K

Nothing beats these moments

 

What It's Like

When I became a mother at 19, I never thought I would become a single mother.

If you would've told me I'd be where I am today 6 years ago, I'd probably laugh in your face and call you crazy. When you think you have everything planned out in your head the way your life is going to go, God has a way of changing things up for the better and all you can do it trust Him and go with it.

I was a stay at home mom for almost two years of Kendrix's life. When I started working again it became one of the hardest things for me to do but every day when I get off work his reaction to me coming home, keeps me going. I know I'm doing what's best for both of us and it's reassuring to know he knows that.

I became a single mother a year and a half ago. The struggles that have come with it have been nothing short of crazy. I work full time and on top of that I raise my wonderful son. Raising a toddler on your own is not easy. I think my favorite thing is to see the crazy come backs he has to say to anything I say. You know, the ones where he knows it's going to get under your skin. My patience has never been so tested in my entire life. All I can do is pray to have the patience I need and boy does it help.

Being a single mother is probably one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Only because it has changed me in ways unexplainable to anyone. I love so much deeper. I laugh a little bit harder. I trust more than ever. I've become closer to God and saved so many friendships. After becoming single, I knew Kendrix needed me now more than ever. It became him and me against the world.

Encouragement, patience, love, compassion are all things little boys need from their moms. I'm not trying to raise my son into a mommas boy but someday he will look back at all the things I did to take care of him or the way I react to things. Someday, I will be the one he compares his future wife to. The only thing I can do is be the best role model for him that I can possibly be. Some of the best actors were raised by a single mom.

Raising a little boy has to be the best thing for me. I mean look at all the fun stuff we get to experience?! We get to play in mud, watch tons of sports, play with cars, and watch movies with a hole bunch of action in it! It can be the most trying thing in the world. The way Kendrix knows exactly what will push my buttons is beyond me but he sure knows how. He knows how to make me laugh and cry by some of the sweetest things he says. Being his mother has been the biggest blessing in my life.

I feel like being a single mom is frowned upon now a days. Do you really think all single moms purposely chose this life? NO! Responsibility sometimes is too much for the other half and that's the end of it. We can't control what another person does or feel but we make the best of the situation and roll with it. All we can do is raise our children to the best we possibly can without the other parties help. I try my best every day to make Kendrix proud and raise him in the direction he should go. A HUGE help for me would have to be my faith and my family. God has helped me through every step in raising Kendrix. The power of prayer is amazing and attending church helps Kendrix learn in more ways than just one. My family and friends help keep me going and push me to do better and I could never thank them enough for all they do.

 

Keep pushing no matter what comes your way when raising a little one on your own. It may not be easy, but it's certainly worth it.  

 

Much Love

~K

 

 

 

 

There is an enduring tenderness in the love of a mother to a son that transcends all other affections of the heart - Washington Irving



Would you know how?

If you knew you found the one, would you know what to do or how to keep them around?

 

This world has become so infested with filth every where that it is ruining relationships and marriages. It has now become so easy to cheat with just one text message and then delete it like nothing happened. This world has changed so much over the past few years on outlooks of relationships and marriage and what cheating actually is. My thing is if you are deleting messages or hiding things from your significant other, you are already there. Back in the day you used to just have to worry if the other is having an affair with their secretary at work. Now you have tons of people who don't respect any kind of relationship who think it's ok to message them and tell them how they feel when you shouldn't! Even if the other doesn't find out, you should still feel a ton of guilt. It's sad when one tries so hard to make the other happy and the other doesn't even try.

 

So back to my question, if you knew you found the one, would you know what to d or how to keep them around? Another could be added would you want to keep them around or just screw around on them and make them never wanna be with you again? People don't wait forever especially if you hurt them in any way. Talking to another person of the opposite sex isn't a big deal but don't delete the message and don't talk about things you shouldn't be talking about. Don't get on porn site because that just makes the other person feel degraded and as they aren't doing enough. Don't get on dating websites, which why would you do that in a relationship anyways? Most importantly don't cheat. Physically. It's so sad to see relationships fall apart by all these sad and stupid reasons.

 Life is too short to lose the ones you love over selfish reasons.

 

If you know you've found the one but it's the wrong timing, would you have the guts to tell them the truth? Dragging someone along just for the fun of it isn't fair to the other person. Don't keep them around just because they are happy. If you are unhappy let the person know. Honesty is the best policy. If you know you've found the right one and it's the wrong timing, you're risking losing that person forever.

 

I just like to see happy couples and successful couples. In this day and age it's hard but if you know you found the one, don't lose them and don't hurt them. Losing trust is the hardest thing to get back. A simple hurtful thing can hurt the worst and take years to get back the trust. Think wisely, love deeply, trust strongly, and never lose faith.

 

 

My thoughts for the day :)

 

Much love

~K

a little update

When I became a mother I never thought things would be where they are now. Things honestly changed for the better though. God always knows the plan and I feel like I'm walking in his plan.

There is never a right or wrong time to find or have happiness. Though we should make ourselves happy, others come along and help the happiness as well. When Corey came a long I was NOT looking for anything at all. I think that's when we find the best kind of love is when we aren't looking for it and it just comes a long. I never thought I'd find some thing so great so fast but I'm glad I have and thank God for him every day. I don't have to tell any one how great he is with Kendrix because he just shows it no matter we are or what we're doing. I am not the only one who has found happiness either. Micah is now in a relationship too and couldn't be happier for him and her. I hope she's as good with Kendrix as much as Corey is with him. I think it is important that Kendrix knows the situation and what's going on and be mindful that he is still only 2 years old. We are all happy now and that's all that matters.

It is hard for me to let Kendrix go with his dad any where but that's just a mother thing. I'm used to seeing him 24/7 and now that the divorce is going through it has to be some compromise. I'm the one that has to get that through my head. I'm just glad Kendrix will have multiple happy families to go to.

God has a plan for all of us and his dad and I wasn't in His plan. Now we just have to go a long with our lives always keeping God first and being mindful of Kendrix also. Thank you to all who have stood by our sides through every thing and have never judged us. Co parenting isn't the easiest thing in the world to do but you gotta do it with plenty of communication. It does some times put a strain on some relationships because some do have to put their input but it's always gonna happen that way no matter what. We just try to do the best we can because we can't please every one.

Thanks to all again who understand every thing and stand by us.

Much Love
~K

Life has a funny way of working itself out.

I've had a lot weighing heavy on my mind lately. Lots of random things.

First off, I can't believe Kendrix is already 2! Where in the world has the time gone?! Seems like just yesterday I just found out I was having a boy. Now he's talking like crazy, singing along to songs, and always smiling and laughing. Time sure flies when you're having fun raising a child! Now time for the potty training to somewhat begin. (oh boy)

As I looked back on the last post I posted, I've realized God has a wonderful plan for me. I may not understand it yet but I know I trust in him. Things may not always be as easy as I make it out to be but I know with God's help I can do anything. Thinking about this tough time I'm having just makes me realize how much stronger I'm becoming through it. To me, that's all that matters. Pages have turned and there were lessons learned. 

It takes a lot for someone to admit they're wrong. It also takes a lot for you to forgive someone that has done wrong to you. Forgiving people will make you so much stronger in the end. When you truly forgive someone, you never bring it up again. Forgiveness is never easy.

Trust is never easy either. Once you've lost someones trust, it's the hardest thing ever to get back. I'm not saying impossible but it's pretty hard. If you never give them a reason to not trust you in the first place, then you'll never have to worry. I used to have a lot of trust issues. Now I got the point of I trust you till you give me a reason not to.

When you fall out of love with a person, don't ever give up on love. Just because someone didn't know how to love or hurt you or whatever, don't give up. God has amazing plans a head of you. Even though you think the factors in your life may keep you from love, they won't. If someone loves you and actually know what love means, they will love everything about you. (yes ladies, even the flaws) 

My life had a funny way of working itself out. Kendrix and I are completely happy. I hope Kendrix's dad feels the same about his life. Though we may not be together any more I still hope the very best. That is true forgiveness. 

God knows what he's doing, so TRUST in Him.

Much Love,

~K

Is It Wrong of Me?

I could sit here and watch cartoons with Kendrix all day if I could. Watching his innocent little mind play along with Mickey Mouse Clubhouse makes me so happy. He's learning so much every day. I still can't believe he'll be two in two months.As he gets older and shows more love for me each day, it makes me realize a lot.

Sometimes I start to miss good morning and good night texts from someone special. Sometimes I miss going out on dates or snuggling with someone. I sometimes miss the thought of someone loving me for who I am or what I've been through. I start to miss the thought of being cared about by someone else. 

As I start to think about these things I think to myself, I'm being selfish. Selfish for thinking about my own needs before my sons. Is it wrong of me to think I'm being selfish for that?  He doesn't need people in and out of his life. I couldn't do that to him. When I start to miss these things, I know Kendrix does the majority of those things. He loves and cares about me unconditionally and I couldn't ask for anything better! In the future things may change but who knows. I like it being just him and me.

Does that mean I stay cooped up in a house all day just sitting here? Oh heavens NO! I've got a wonderful job that allows me to stay home with Kendrix. I take them places like the zoo, swimming or even climb a mountain.We're trying to sell my moms house right now so the house always has to be clean and with kids we all know that's never easy. I have wonderful friends that I go and do things with or just hang out with them. I also try to go to the gym whenever possible. I'm working on myself right now and always taking care of Kendrix so when would I have time for a guy right now? Not saying things can't change but I'm saying I'm very happy and content with my life.

God has a plan for me and all I can do is trust in Him. I may not ever be able to figure out the outcome or why something happened but I know it's all in His plan. Some days the path is bumpier than others but I pray for strength to stay on the right path. Times of struggle is a time to get closer to God. I know he has a marvelous plan for me and can't wait to see it unfold.

Proverbs 3:5

  Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.




Much Love,
~K

Before & When I Became A Mother.

Before I became a mother, I never knew what true love was.

Before I became a mother, I was lost with no direction in life.

Before I became a mother, I never knew sleepless nights.

Before I became a mother, I never knew the pain and suffering I had to go through to get you in this world.

Before I became a mother, I never had been drooled on, spit up on, or thrown up on.

Before I became a mother, I had never been peed on or pooped on multiple times.

Before I became a mother, I never knew the smile on an innocent face could be so beautiful.

Before I became a mother, I never knew what my mom had to go through to raise me, but now I know.

 

Now that I'm a mother, I wouldn't trade any of it for the world.

Watching you grow up and learn new things every day is so rewarding to me. Watching your eyes light up when you learn something new. Watching you run around the house like a maniac. Watching you love the dog and cat and the way you give kisses.

Now that I'm a mother, I've learned a lot about myself and other things. Never give up on yourself or your child. Always fight for what you love. Where you invest your time and love, you invest your life. Always rinse out bottles or they'll be super hard to wash. Always pull the chest strap in the car seat over the chest. Always baby proof the house when they start getting mobile. I've learned that I was walked over a lot but now I finally have the courage to do stuff about it.

Now that I'm a mother, I love deeper.

Now that I'm a mother, I cry when you cry and am in pain when you're in pain.

Now that I'm a mother, I smile when you smile and laugh when you laugh.

Now that I'm a mother, I've grown up a lot. Your needs are greater than my own.

Now that I'm a mother, I want to do every thing for you.

Now that I'm a mother, I never want to let you down.

I hope one day you can understand why I did things the way I did. Why your dad and I didn't work out and why I even left in the first place. I hope I make you proud every day. When you cry for momma, know I'm always right there. I'm never far away. When you give me kisses or sign I love you, you bring tears of joy to my eyes. Know that I always love you son no matter what.

 

 

Much Love!

~K, the mother of one. <3

07/24/2012

Kendrix DeWayne Thompson

9lbs 14oz 22in.

You've blessed me beyond measure, son!

 

Its been a while!

Things in my life the past few months turned hectic really fast. Faster than I thought humanly possible. I am now a single mom to my amazing son. I will not go into details as to why his father and I didn't work out but if you really wanna know, you may contact me. I did what I thought was best for my son and me. I never thought I would have the strength to leave but what he was doing was so wrong. I can honestly say though, that I am much happier being back home in Oklahoma where I am loved and wanted.

Kendrix and I moved back about a month ago and since being back things have looked up for the both of us. I got an amazing job opportunity that I'm very blessed to have. I watch two other kids besides my own at my house. I am able to stay at home with Kendrix and get paid for it. Kendrix gets along with both kids very well, which I was never worried about. All the kids are very kind to each other and they make it easy to watch them. We have been trying to get my moms house sold so she can move in with my grandparents and Kendrix and I will get an apartment! God has given me amazing strength to get through this tough time. 

I never thought I would ever be a single mom. God had a different plan for me in life and all I can do now is trust him. In doing so I've been very blessed since being back. When you look at your life, make sure you never take anything for granted because it can be gone in the blink of an eye. I'm very thankful for my family and friends that have helped me though this transition in my life. I cannot thank y'all enough. I have mended friendships I never would've thought could be mended. I've gone to 4 Thunder games since being back and loved every minute of it. I've also been going to the gym when Kendrix falls asleep at night. Things have really been great for us. All of these things would've never happened if I would've never left. I'm not saying I'm thrilled that things happened the way they did, but there's nothing I can do about his actions. I now only have to worry about my own and my sons.

 

Thank you everyone for your kind thoughts and prayers being sent our way. Thank you also to everyone that has been behind us every step of the way. Y'all are awesome!

 

Much Love!

~K&K

Different things

Some times the slightest things can make you realize a lot of things.

We went and saw About Last Night on Saturday and movies kinda make you re-evaluate things. To me it was my relationship with my husband. Some days we obviously don't have the best relationship and some days it's all fine and dandy. A relationship is something that needs work. Not just from you and not just from him. It has to be from both of you. Being married young brings lots of challenges. 

Trying to please every one has always been my challenge. I love pleasing my husband and it used to be my mom and me for so long, I feel like I still need to please her too. We went to marriage counseling and the counselor said I'm a people pleaser, which is true! I love my mom to death and of course I want to please her but some times I just can't and that's just it. Some times we can't please every one. I know some day Kendrix will most likely disappoint us but it's not going to make us think differently of him. We love no matter the circumstances. That's what God wants us to do.

I look to different people for certain things. Advice wise I usually go to my mom or Micah or my cousin it just really depends on what it's about. But some times we just need to go to the person that it may be about. It'll help so much more and you'll be happier in the end. Sorry I'm just rambling. I haven't posted in a while since it was my birthday and all but I've had a lot on my mind! Thank you for being patient with me. 

Much love 

~K Thompson 

Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day to you all! 

It shouldn't take one day out of the year to show how much you care about the one you love. Yes, flowers and candies are a good gesture but shouldn't you get them more than one time a year? Showing you love someone is much more than just flowers or gifts. Your actions say a lot. When Micah wakes up and takes care of Kendrix for a few more minutes so I can wake up. That's a way you can show you care about someone. He knows how I hard I work at times so he does little things like that to show he cares and appreciates me. The same goes for him. I know he has school and practice so I try to get Kendrix to take his naps around the time he gets out of practice. Playing his favorite video game or just giving random hugs or kisses. 

You don't have to spend money on your love to show you love them. I don't think it should take one day out of the year to show how much you love someone. I think it should be shown all the time. Public and private. Yes, Valentine's day is a very special day to some but I've received Micah's love for about 5 amazing years and he never fails to show me he loves me every day. 

The best way he's ever shown his love for me was giving me our son. Last Valentine's day was Kendrix's first Valentine's day and we went to the Ft. Worth zoo as a family and had a blast. This year we don't really have anything planned and I'm perfectly fine with that. I love sitting around and cuddling with my family. You learn to appreciate the little things.

I hope every one has a great day but remember, show the one you love how much you love and care about them every day. Not just on Valentine's Day! It will mean so much more in the long run.

Much Love,

~K Thompson

 

Be The One..

Be the person you were when your spouse fell in love with you.

When we get married and have children, we seem to forget the person we were when we met our spouse. We get so cause up in our wifely or motherly duties, we forget about our husbands. We forget to do the things that made our spouse fall in love with us. For example, the little things. Sending them a text message during the day to let them know you were thinking about them and that you love them. I know when Micah and I first got together, I used to text him every opportunity I got so he always knew I loved him and was always thinking of him. Making him feel special. During the days now, it's just filled with cleaning and making sure Kendrix is taken care of. I don't text him as much as I used to during the times he's away because I just forget. I get busy. It's kinda sad actually. 

We wait so long to find the man of our dreams. Sadly, we when we find him, we stop doing the things we were doing when we fell in love. Guys are just as guilty at this as we are. I think when Micah and I first got together we seemed to go crazy of each other. I was in such amazement with him over every single thing he did to or for me. I would ALWAYS want to be around him. Always would want to talk to him if we were apart. Always wanted to hear him talk, sing, laugh, or smile. Always wanted to feel his huge arms around me. I've strayed away from all that. Now that we got married, I can honestly say I've forgotten to be the woman I was when we fell in love. I want to get back to that.

We need to get back into doing the little things for our husbands. Saying we love you during the day. Kiss him passionately just because. Jump for joy when they get home. Get sad when they have to leave. Get dressed up for him. Get sexy at night. Make him want YOU. Make him remember why he fell in love with you. You'd be amazed how much your marriage or relationship will change. Stop nagging him constantly. I have to take my own advice on this cause I nag a bunch.. Stop bringing up past situations. Stop being insecure with your self. He chose YOU over every one. You married this wonderful man, so show him you love him and appreciate him. This is your life now, with him. Make it the best it can be so he'll never wanna leave. Make him proud to call you his wife. 

Have a fabulous day!

Much Love,

~K Thompson

Love of my life & I, 3 years ago <3

This won't be me anymore..

To be honest, my week was far from perfect. With that being said, I am FAR from perfect.

I learned in the course of this week I can be very selfish. I am sharing these things because I don't want any of y'all to ever go down this path. 

When it comes to my marriage, I don't think about my husbands needs some times. I jump to conclusions way to fast and easy. I probably nag more than I should. Maybe I ask too from of my him. I try to pick fights which I can honestly say I do not know why. It solves NOTHING. 

Seeing all these typed down, I feel terrible. I have got to learn from my mistakes. Which it can be done people. I know if I want to keep my marriage lively and well, some things have got to be done. Am I saying I have an awful marriage? No. It just some times can be dysfunctional at times. Am I saying I'm a bad wife? No not all the time. There are just things I know I can work on. Am I the only one that has to work on things? Probably not but I would never tell him what needs to be changed. Never try and change a person. 

In my eyes, my husband is perfect. Maybe even too perfect if that's even possible. Yes we both make mistakes but who doesn't? We just start to lose ourselves and don't really know how to start back up some times.  

Some thing I need to work on is loving more like Jesus does. Unconditional.Forgiving. I need to start praying more and getting my nose in my bible. I just always want every one to be happy especially when it comes to my marriage. I am very privileged to have a husband like mine. He lets me stay home with our son and watch him grow. He understands that I don't really know how to cook but eats my food anyways. He does little things that just make me fall in love with him all over again.

We were away from each other for two weeks and that contributes to my over reacting and things like that. I just start to miss him and hope he feels the same way I do. That's what scares me most is the unknown. I just have to trust him and trust God that every thing is always going to be okay.

With all this being said, don't judge me. I'm a young married mother with a hectic life. I will continue to strive to be the best wife and mother I can be. I refuse to be the reason why our marriage ever suffers. Don't be the reason for anything. Fights, drama ANYTHING. Do your best to be the best for him. You made vows so cherish them and abide by them. Love your spouse like The Lord loved his son. Don't forget to give him attention just like you do your children. Be the one he fell in love with.

Much Love

~K Thompson

God Has Blessed Me

First off, it's cold. Don't really know if I can think straight this morning. Just kidding. I gotta cause it's only Kendrix and me in the house. My mom finally comes home tomorrow and I'm so excited! I've missed her so very much. Praying for a safe trip back.

Lots of things have been on my mind today. As I'm watching my sweet innocent child run around messing up the house that I just cleaned, God has blessed me with him. God has blessed me with lots of things. A wonderful family, amazing husband, and some pretty awesome friends. The life that Micah and I live, is anything but ordinary. We travel back and forth between Oklahoma and Texas a lot. Probably more than we should. Micah takes on a lot down in Texas. Not only does he have a family he has to care and provide for, he has a 15 hour class schedule, study hall in the evenings, and football on the daily. If you're wondering how our schedules go, it goes something like this. Monday's we're pretty lucky because he has a night class from 6 to 8:50. During the day we pretty much have him to ourselves except for work outs every week day from 12:30 to around 3. Tuesdays and Thursdays he has class from 8 to about 11. Study hall Tuesday nights and Wednesday nights. Kendrix gets naps based around his schedule because I try to ensure Micah gets as much time as he can with Kendrix. On Tuesdays at our library they have a session called Toddler Time. Kendrix and I go to that with one of our friends who has a little boy a few months younger than Kendrix and her husband was also on the football team. Micah also has a couple of online classes. I also have two online classes I'm taking. I usually do my homework when Kenny takes a nap or when every one has fallen asleep at night. So there is a little day in the life of us. Pretty hectic huh?

Although we have a crazy life, I wouldn't trade it for the world. I love being down in Texas because it's our own life. We don't have any one to depend on but each other. Not our parents just us. I've grown up so much since I moved down there a year ago. Most teens my age don't move that far away from home unless they go to college. I did it so my little family could all be together. Like a good mom and wife should do. God has blessed me with this opportunity to grow stronger in my faith and stronger with my little family. I thank God every day for my husband, son and family. My life is awesome and I owe it all to Him.

Don't forget to thank God for the things you are thankful for. 

Thank you all for reading and supporting us.

Much Love,

~K

Just a little silly pic of us :)

A Letter to Our Son

Even though you're standing in front of me crying because I won't let you have the phone, I love you.

Our lives changed forever on July 24,2012. You came into this world at 8:10 AM by a c-section. Daddy and I were nervous about the c-section but we knew we had to get you into this world somehow. When you came into this world, I had know idea you were as big as you were. 9 lbs 14 oz and 22 in long! You pooped and peed before they could weigh you so I think you probably were about 10 lbs even :) Every one thought I was carrying twins, but you are your dads child so you were gonna be big. When we first saw you, we were amazed. We couldn't believe that we made you. You were made of only our DNA. Daddy's nose mommy's lips. You were perfect. 

Watching you grow has been amazing. From your first smile to crawling at 6 months to walking to talking! It's hard to believe you're a year and a half old. Having you as a toddler is so much fun. Every stage brings something new and it's what keeps us going. You love football just as much as your daddy. Every time you see the North Texas eagle, you say football regardless if it has a football on it or not. You learned how to say North Texas at the Bowl Game for daddy's team. You amaze me how much you pick up so fast. Hopefully you can pick up potty training when we start next week. :) 

Kendrix DeWayne, daddy and I hope you grow up big and strong and learn to love God as much as we do. We love watching you pray. Amazing to think you learned that so quickly by watching daddy and I pray. You are the light of our lives and you completely saved us. You are such a strong willed little boy and I hope that carries on as you grow. You're independent at times but you love your cuddles too. That's mommas favorite thing :) Thank you for being the best little boy we could ever ask for. Thank you for bringing so much joy to ours and other peoples lives. It's hard not to smile when we are with you. Daddy and I hope we can continue to be the best parents we can be for you. Words can't even begin to express our love and care for you. Our families love you too. Gammaw, Granny, PaPa, Poppy, every one loves you. Even the dog :) Always keep that dimple smile on your face and never stop being you. 

WE LOVE YOU & don't you ever forget that.

Love,

~Daddy & Mommy.

You & your body are beautiful

Maybe I'm insecure but who isn't? I have stretch marks from when the little one was in my tummy and gained weight from being pregnant. My hair isn't long and pretty like I'd like it to be. The girl next to me in the grocery line has three kids and is a twig. Why couldn't that be me?

Everyone's body is different. My body was my son's home for 9 months. Every stretch mark has a meaning to me. Every movement he ever had in my tummy every hiccup and kick. Even now that he's out they still have meaning. Yes i gained weight but I'm okay with that. Every insecurity about my body is what makes me unique. Apparently my husband thought the same thing because he married me. My husband does care about my stretch marks or my muffin top. He cares about what makes me, me. Me as in a woman. Maybe he does care about them though because they are what makes me who I am today. His wife and mother to our child. I'm the same person he fell in love with on the inside but maybe changed a little on the outside. He loves me for me and that's all that matters.

So ladies stop comparing yourself. You're beautiful in every way. Don't let any one tell you different. & your insecurities are what make you beautiful. You rock and don't ever change.

Much love
~K