What It's Like

When I became a mother at 19, I never thought I would become a single mother.

If you would've told me I'd be where I am today 6 years ago, I'd probably laugh in your face and call you crazy. When you think you have everything planned out in your head the way your life is going to go, God has a way of changing things up for the better and all you can do it trust Him and go with it.

I was a stay at home mom for almost two years of Kendrix's life. When I started working again it became one of the hardest things for me to do but every day when I get off work his reaction to me coming home, keeps me going. I know I'm doing what's best for both of us and it's reassuring to know he knows that.

I became a single mother a year and a half ago. The struggles that have come with it have been nothing short of crazy. I work full time and on top of that I raise my wonderful son. Raising a toddler on your own is not easy. I think my favorite thing is to see the crazy come backs he has to say to anything I say. You know, the ones where he knows it's going to get under your skin. My patience has never been so tested in my entire life. All I can do is pray to have the patience I need and boy does it help.

Being a single mother is probably one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Only because it has changed me in ways unexplainable to anyone. I love so much deeper. I laugh a little bit harder. I trust more than ever. I've become closer to God and saved so many friendships. After becoming single, I knew Kendrix needed me now more than ever. It became him and me against the world.

Encouragement, patience, love, compassion are all things little boys need from their moms. I'm not trying to raise my son into a mommas boy but someday he will look back at all the things I did to take care of him or the way I react to things. Someday, I will be the one he compares his future wife to. The only thing I can do is be the best role model for him that I can possibly be. Some of the best actors were raised by a single mom.

Raising a little boy has to be the best thing for me. I mean look at all the fun stuff we get to experience?! We get to play in mud, watch tons of sports, play with cars, and watch movies with a hole bunch of action in it! It can be the most trying thing in the world. The way Kendrix knows exactly what will push my buttons is beyond me but he sure knows how. He knows how to make me laugh and cry by some of the sweetest things he says. Being his mother has been the biggest blessing in my life.

I feel like being a single mom is frowned upon now a days. Do you really think all single moms purposely chose this life? NO! Responsibility sometimes is too much for the other half and that's the end of it. We can't control what another person does or feel but we make the best of the situation and roll with it. All we can do is raise our children to the best we possibly can without the other parties help. I try my best every day to make Kendrix proud and raise him in the direction he should go. A HUGE help for me would have to be my faith and my family. God has helped me through every step in raising Kendrix. The power of prayer is amazing and attending church helps Kendrix learn in more ways than just one. My family and friends help keep me going and push me to do better and I could never thank them enough for all they do.

 

Keep pushing no matter what comes your way when raising a little one on your own. It may not be easy, but it's certainly worth it.  

 

Much Love

~K

 

 

 

 

There is an enduring tenderness in the love of a mother to a son that transcends all other affections of the heart - Washington Irving



a little update

When I became a mother I never thought things would be where they are now. Things honestly changed for the better though. God always knows the plan and I feel like I'm walking in his plan.

There is never a right or wrong time to find or have happiness. Though we should make ourselves happy, others come along and help the happiness as well. When Corey came a long I was NOT looking for anything at all. I think that's when we find the best kind of love is when we aren't looking for it and it just comes a long. I never thought I'd find some thing so great so fast but I'm glad I have and thank God for him every day. I don't have to tell any one how great he is with Kendrix because he just shows it no matter we are or what we're doing. I am not the only one who has found happiness either. Micah is now in a relationship too and couldn't be happier for him and her. I hope she's as good with Kendrix as much as Corey is with him. I think it is important that Kendrix knows the situation and what's going on and be mindful that he is still only 2 years old. We are all happy now and that's all that matters.

It is hard for me to let Kendrix go with his dad any where but that's just a mother thing. I'm used to seeing him 24/7 and now that the divorce is going through it has to be some compromise. I'm the one that has to get that through my head. I'm just glad Kendrix will have multiple happy families to go to.

God has a plan for all of us and his dad and I wasn't in His plan. Now we just have to go a long with our lives always keeping God first and being mindful of Kendrix also. Thank you to all who have stood by our sides through every thing and have never judged us. Co parenting isn't the easiest thing in the world to do but you gotta do it with plenty of communication. It does some times put a strain on some relationships because some do have to put their input but it's always gonna happen that way no matter what. We just try to do the best we can because we can't please every one.

Thanks to all again who understand every thing and stand by us.

Much Love
~K

Life has a funny way of working itself out.

I've had a lot weighing heavy on my mind lately. Lots of random things.

First off, I can't believe Kendrix is already 2! Where in the world has the time gone?! Seems like just yesterday I just found out I was having a boy. Now he's talking like crazy, singing along to songs, and always smiling and laughing. Time sure flies when you're having fun raising a child! Now time for the potty training to somewhat begin. (oh boy)

As I looked back on the last post I posted, I've realized God has a wonderful plan for me. I may not understand it yet but I know I trust in him. Things may not always be as easy as I make it out to be but I know with God's help I can do anything. Thinking about this tough time I'm having just makes me realize how much stronger I'm becoming through it. To me, that's all that matters. Pages have turned and there were lessons learned. 

It takes a lot for someone to admit they're wrong. It also takes a lot for you to forgive someone that has done wrong to you. Forgiving people will make you so much stronger in the end. When you truly forgive someone, you never bring it up again. Forgiveness is never easy.

Trust is never easy either. Once you've lost someones trust, it's the hardest thing ever to get back. I'm not saying impossible but it's pretty hard. If you never give them a reason to not trust you in the first place, then you'll never have to worry. I used to have a lot of trust issues. Now I got the point of I trust you till you give me a reason not to.

When you fall out of love with a person, don't ever give up on love. Just because someone didn't know how to love or hurt you or whatever, don't give up. God has amazing plans a head of you. Even though you think the factors in your life may keep you from love, they won't. If someone loves you and actually know what love means, they will love everything about you. (yes ladies, even the flaws) 

My life had a funny way of working itself out. Kendrix and I are completely happy. I hope Kendrix's dad feels the same about his life. Though we may not be together any more I still hope the very best. That is true forgiveness. 

God knows what he's doing, so TRUST in Him.

Much Love,

~K

Is It Wrong of Me?

I could sit here and watch cartoons with Kendrix all day if I could. Watching his innocent little mind play along with Mickey Mouse Clubhouse makes me so happy. He's learning so much every day. I still can't believe he'll be two in two months.As he gets older and shows more love for me each day, it makes me realize a lot.

Sometimes I start to miss good morning and good night texts from someone special. Sometimes I miss going out on dates or snuggling with someone. I sometimes miss the thought of someone loving me for who I am or what I've been through. I start to miss the thought of being cared about by someone else. 

As I start to think about these things I think to myself, I'm being selfish. Selfish for thinking about my own needs before my sons. Is it wrong of me to think I'm being selfish for that?  He doesn't need people in and out of his life. I couldn't do that to him. When I start to miss these things, I know Kendrix does the majority of those things. He loves and cares about me unconditionally and I couldn't ask for anything better! In the future things may change but who knows. I like it being just him and me.

Does that mean I stay cooped up in a house all day just sitting here? Oh heavens NO! I've got a wonderful job that allows me to stay home with Kendrix. I take them places like the zoo, swimming or even climb a mountain.We're trying to sell my moms house right now so the house always has to be clean and with kids we all know that's never easy. I have wonderful friends that I go and do things with or just hang out with them. I also try to go to the gym whenever possible. I'm working on myself right now and always taking care of Kendrix so when would I have time for a guy right now? Not saying things can't change but I'm saying I'm very happy and content with my life.

God has a plan for me and all I can do is trust in Him. I may not ever be able to figure out the outcome or why something happened but I know it's all in His plan. Some days the path is bumpier than others but I pray for strength to stay on the right path. Times of struggle is a time to get closer to God. I know he has a marvelous plan for me and can't wait to see it unfold.

Proverbs 3:5

  Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.




Much Love,
~K

Its been a while!

Things in my life the past few months turned hectic really fast. Faster than I thought humanly possible. I am now a single mom to my amazing son. I will not go into details as to why his father and I didn't work out but if you really wanna know, you may contact me. I did what I thought was best for my son and me. I never thought I would have the strength to leave but what he was doing was so wrong. I can honestly say though, that I am much happier being back home in Oklahoma where I am loved and wanted.

Kendrix and I moved back about a month ago and since being back things have looked up for the both of us. I got an amazing job opportunity that I'm very blessed to have. I watch two other kids besides my own at my house. I am able to stay at home with Kendrix and get paid for it. Kendrix gets along with both kids very well, which I was never worried about. All the kids are very kind to each other and they make it easy to watch them. We have been trying to get my moms house sold so she can move in with my grandparents and Kendrix and I will get an apartment! God has given me amazing strength to get through this tough time. 

I never thought I would ever be a single mom. God had a different plan for me in life and all I can do now is trust him. In doing so I've been very blessed since being back. When you look at your life, make sure you never take anything for granted because it can be gone in the blink of an eye. I'm very thankful for my family and friends that have helped me though this transition in my life. I cannot thank y'all enough. I have mended friendships I never would've thought could be mended. I've gone to 4 Thunder games since being back and loved every minute of it. I've also been going to the gym when Kendrix falls asleep at night. Things have really been great for us. All of these things would've never happened if I would've never left. I'm not saying I'm thrilled that things happened the way they did, but there's nothing I can do about his actions. I now only have to worry about my own and my sons.

 

Thank you everyone for your kind thoughts and prayers being sent our way. Thank you also to everyone that has been behind us every step of the way. Y'all are awesome!

 

Much Love!

~K&K

Be The One..

Be the person you were when your spouse fell in love with you.

When we get married and have children, we seem to forget the person we were when we met our spouse. We get so cause up in our wifely or motherly duties, we forget about our husbands. We forget to do the things that made our spouse fall in love with us. For example, the little things. Sending them a text message during the day to let them know you were thinking about them and that you love them. I know when Micah and I first got together, I used to text him every opportunity I got so he always knew I loved him and was always thinking of him. Making him feel special. During the days now, it's just filled with cleaning and making sure Kendrix is taken care of. I don't text him as much as I used to during the times he's away because I just forget. I get busy. It's kinda sad actually. 

We wait so long to find the man of our dreams. Sadly, we when we find him, we stop doing the things we were doing when we fell in love. Guys are just as guilty at this as we are. I think when Micah and I first got together we seemed to go crazy of each other. I was in such amazement with him over every single thing he did to or for me. I would ALWAYS want to be around him. Always would want to talk to him if we were apart. Always wanted to hear him talk, sing, laugh, or smile. Always wanted to feel his huge arms around me. I've strayed away from all that. Now that we got married, I can honestly say I've forgotten to be the woman I was when we fell in love. I want to get back to that.

We need to get back into doing the little things for our husbands. Saying we love you during the day. Kiss him passionately just because. Jump for joy when they get home. Get sad when they have to leave. Get dressed up for him. Get sexy at night. Make him want YOU. Make him remember why he fell in love with you. You'd be amazed how much your marriage or relationship will change. Stop nagging him constantly. I have to take my own advice on this cause I nag a bunch.. Stop bringing up past situations. Stop being insecure with your self. He chose YOU over every one. You married this wonderful man, so show him you love him and appreciate him. This is your life now, with him. Make it the best it can be so he'll never wanna leave. Make him proud to call you his wife. 

Have a fabulous day!

Much Love,

~K Thompson

Love of my life & I, 3 years ago <3

This won't be me anymore..

To be honest, my week was far from perfect. With that being said, I am FAR from perfect.

I learned in the course of this week I can be very selfish. I am sharing these things because I don't want any of y'all to ever go down this path. 

When it comes to my marriage, I don't think about my husbands needs some times. I jump to conclusions way to fast and easy. I probably nag more than I should. Maybe I ask too from of my him. I try to pick fights which I can honestly say I do not know why. It solves NOTHING. 

Seeing all these typed down, I feel terrible. I have got to learn from my mistakes. Which it can be done people. I know if I want to keep my marriage lively and well, some things have got to be done. Am I saying I have an awful marriage? No. It just some times can be dysfunctional at times. Am I saying I'm a bad wife? No not all the time. There are just things I know I can work on. Am I the only one that has to work on things? Probably not but I would never tell him what needs to be changed. Never try and change a person. 

In my eyes, my husband is perfect. Maybe even too perfect if that's even possible. Yes we both make mistakes but who doesn't? We just start to lose ourselves and don't really know how to start back up some times.  

Some thing I need to work on is loving more like Jesus does. Unconditional.Forgiving. I need to start praying more and getting my nose in my bible. I just always want every one to be happy especially when it comes to my marriage. I am very privileged to have a husband like mine. He lets me stay home with our son and watch him grow. He understands that I don't really know how to cook but eats my food anyways. He does little things that just make me fall in love with him all over again.

We were away from each other for two weeks and that contributes to my over reacting and things like that. I just start to miss him and hope he feels the same way I do. That's what scares me most is the unknown. I just have to trust him and trust God that every thing is always going to be okay.

With all this being said, don't judge me. I'm a young married mother with a hectic life. I will continue to strive to be the best wife and mother I can be. I refuse to be the reason why our marriage ever suffers. Don't be the reason for anything. Fights, drama ANYTHING. Do your best to be the best for him. You made vows so cherish them and abide by them. Love your spouse like The Lord loved his son. Don't forget to give him attention just like you do your children. Be the one he fell in love with.

Much Love

~K Thompson

God Has Blessed Me

First off, it's cold. Don't really know if I can think straight this morning. Just kidding. I gotta cause it's only Kendrix and me in the house. My mom finally comes home tomorrow and I'm so excited! I've missed her so very much. Praying for a safe trip back.

Lots of things have been on my mind today. As I'm watching my sweet innocent child run around messing up the house that I just cleaned, God has blessed me with him. God has blessed me with lots of things. A wonderful family, amazing husband, and some pretty awesome friends. The life that Micah and I live, is anything but ordinary. We travel back and forth between Oklahoma and Texas a lot. Probably more than we should. Micah takes on a lot down in Texas. Not only does he have a family he has to care and provide for, he has a 15 hour class schedule, study hall in the evenings, and football on the daily. If you're wondering how our schedules go, it goes something like this. Monday's we're pretty lucky because he has a night class from 6 to 8:50. During the day we pretty much have him to ourselves except for work outs every week day from 12:30 to around 3. Tuesdays and Thursdays he has class from 8 to about 11. Study hall Tuesday nights and Wednesday nights. Kendrix gets naps based around his schedule because I try to ensure Micah gets as much time as he can with Kendrix. On Tuesdays at our library they have a session called Toddler Time. Kendrix and I go to that with one of our friends who has a little boy a few months younger than Kendrix and her husband was also on the football team. Micah also has a couple of online classes. I also have two online classes I'm taking. I usually do my homework when Kenny takes a nap or when every one has fallen asleep at night. So there is a little day in the life of us. Pretty hectic huh?

Although we have a crazy life, I wouldn't trade it for the world. I love being down in Texas because it's our own life. We don't have any one to depend on but each other. Not our parents just us. I've grown up so much since I moved down there a year ago. Most teens my age don't move that far away from home unless they go to college. I did it so my little family could all be together. Like a good mom and wife should do. God has blessed me with this opportunity to grow stronger in my faith and stronger with my little family. I thank God every day for my husband, son and family. My life is awesome and I owe it all to Him.

Don't forget to thank God for the things you are thankful for. 

Thank you all for reading and supporting us.

Much Love,

~K

Just a little silly pic of us :)

A letter to My Husband

I know times right now are hard for us. We get so caught up in taking care of our son, we forget to love each other. Some days are easier than others. I think we tend to forget where we started from and why we are where we are. With out you, I wouldn't have this wonderful life you've given me. 

The definition of us started on a June summer day in 2010 at a theme park called Frontier City in Oklahoma. You were working the wild cat which happened to be my favorite ride. You had your blue shirt sleeves rolled up so I could see your yummy muscles. You flirted with me a bunch. Saying you wouldn't check my seat or opening the door for a beautiful girl. I'm sure you remember what I was wearing because you used to tell me all the time. I was way to shy to ask for your number so my friend did for me and I thought you gave me a fake number. If you would've done that, we wouldn't be anywhere we are now. Luckily it wasn't a fake number and it seemed we were inseparable ever since. 

I have so many wonderful memories with you. I can't wait till we share them with our son. From running over that snake in Jones and your football games your senior year to laying on the truck bed watching the stars with you. My most favorite memory of all was our wedding. Our small but perfect wedding. Our vows, our kiss, our love. As we were bonded together as one I never thought we'd be where we are now. Happy in our little one bedroom apartment in Texas. Another favorite is when our son was born. On July 24, 2012 our lives changed forever. Seeing you hold our little guy melted my heart and I cried happy tears. Then and there I knew you'd be a great father. Thank you for staying with us for two weeks right before two a days started. That really took a lot out of you, I know. 

You do so much for Kendrix and me and we never get the chance to really thank you. We do thank you for all you do for us. You've given us the best life in our situation. Some days I forget how much you do for us. Sometimes when you get home I get happy because I get a break from Kenny but really I should be happy because you are home and I get some time with you. I'm sorry for forgetting little things like that.You are the man that helped create our family and I should never forget that. Without you, I would have nothing. 

Thank you for helping me create our crazy life but I wouldn't have it any other way. If I get to caught up in being a mother, stop me and tell me. Time with you is precious to me because I don't get it very often. Thank you again for all you do for us. You're amazing.

With all this being said, let us not forget the man that helped us create our little ones or the life you have. Let them know you appreciate them today. When they come home be happy and jump in their arms. They'll love it. Don't forget to love your husband just like you did before the kids came along. You didn't make your kiddos alone! Appreciate your spouse for they do a lot for you. I understand getting so caught up in parenting, we forget to do so. Start appreciating today!

Much Love

~K

You & your body are beautiful

Maybe I'm insecure but who isn't? I have stretch marks from when the little one was in my tummy and gained weight from being pregnant. My hair isn't long and pretty like I'd like it to be. The girl next to me in the grocery line has three kids and is a twig. Why couldn't that be me?

Everyone's body is different. My body was my son's home for 9 months. Every stretch mark has a meaning to me. Every movement he ever had in my tummy every hiccup and kick. Even now that he's out they still have meaning. Yes i gained weight but I'm okay with that. Every insecurity about my body is what makes me unique. Apparently my husband thought the same thing because he married me. My husband does care about my stretch marks or my muffin top. He cares about what makes me, me. Me as in a woman. Maybe he does care about them though because they are what makes me who I am today. His wife and mother to our child. I'm the same person he fell in love with on the inside but maybe changed a little on the outside. He loves me for me and that's all that matters.

So ladies stop comparing yourself. You're beautiful in every way. Don't let any one tell you different. & your insecurities are what make you beautiful. You rock and don't ever change.

Much love
~K