I have been a terrible mom

Not in the sense that some of you are thinking.

I have been a terrible mom by not paying attention to him. Kendrix did something so cool for the first time and he looked to me to see if I was watching and what do you know I wasn't. I was on the stupid phone. It broke my heart to see Kendrix's face after he saw I wasn't watching. Nothing on my phone is more important than spending quality time with my son. Lots of people are guilty of this. We only get these times once. Today is already gone and you feel like you didn't even get to enjoy it. Quality time with our kids is so important in their development. Just don't forget to pay attention to your kids. Like I said I am guilty as much as the next and need to work on it myself but I just gotta think about how big Kendrix is and won't get the crazy 3 year old years again so make them count!

I am a terrible mom by not explaining things deeply to Kendrix.

He asked me the other day why I have to go to work. I explained it as mommy has to go to work because our new house costs money. He took it and understood it and went to school without thinking about it. When I picked him up he apparently had told his teachers that story and I couldn't believe it. Kids hear everything and replay everything they hear! It was amazing. I'm sure I could have explained it a little better but you have to explain things a way a little kiddo would understand. Kendrix and I laid in the back of the truck and looked up at the moon and stars for a little while one night. I asked him if he knew who made the stars and he said he didn't know. I said God made the stars and a lightbulb clicked. He also membered God made him to be my son. He said those exact words. God did bless me with having him as a son and quality time with him and explaining things to him should never feel like a burden. Questions are healthy for little kiddos. Our jobs as parents should be to explain things to them so they can understand how things and the world around them works. Believe me, it will help when they get bigger.

I just want Kendrix to know and understand I am trying to be the best I can be for him. He is my biggest and by far the greatest accomplishment in my life. He motivates me to do more for us every single day. As a parent I want to be better for him. Think of your kids when it comes to your actions. Think about your kids when it comes to your words and people you hang around. It breaks my heart when parents don't think about anyone but themselves. WE as parents are raising the next generation. WE as parents have the choice to raise our kids right. THINK ABOUT IT...

Much Love

~K

Nothing beats these moments

 

Would you know how?

If you knew you found the one, would you know what to do or how to keep them around?

 

This world has become so infested with filth every where that it is ruining relationships and marriages. It has now become so easy to cheat with just one text message and then delete it like nothing happened. This world has changed so much over the past few years on outlooks of relationships and marriage and what cheating actually is. My thing is if you are deleting messages or hiding things from your significant other, you are already there. Back in the day you used to just have to worry if the other is having an affair with their secretary at work. Now you have tons of people who don't respect any kind of relationship who think it's ok to message them and tell them how they feel when you shouldn't! Even if the other doesn't find out, you should still feel a ton of guilt. It's sad when one tries so hard to make the other happy and the other doesn't even try.

 

So back to my question, if you knew you found the one, would you know what to d or how to keep them around? Another could be added would you want to keep them around or just screw around on them and make them never wanna be with you again? People don't wait forever especially if you hurt them in any way. Talking to another person of the opposite sex isn't a big deal but don't delete the message and don't talk about things you shouldn't be talking about. Don't get on porn site because that just makes the other person feel degraded and as they aren't doing enough. Don't get on dating websites, which why would you do that in a relationship anyways? Most importantly don't cheat. Physically. It's so sad to see relationships fall apart by all these sad and stupid reasons.

 Life is too short to lose the ones you love over selfish reasons.

 

If you know you've found the one but it's the wrong timing, would you have the guts to tell them the truth? Dragging someone along just for the fun of it isn't fair to the other person. Don't keep them around just because they are happy. If you are unhappy let the person know. Honesty is the best policy. If you know you've found the right one and it's the wrong timing, you're risking losing that person forever.

 

I just like to see happy couples and successful couples. In this day and age it's hard but if you know you found the one, don't lose them and don't hurt them. Losing trust is the hardest thing to get back. A simple hurtful thing can hurt the worst and take years to get back the trust. Think wisely, love deeply, trust strongly, and never lose faith.

 

 

My thoughts for the day :)

 

Much love

~K

a little update

When I became a mother I never thought things would be where they are now. Things honestly changed for the better though. God always knows the plan and I feel like I'm walking in his plan.

There is never a right or wrong time to find or have happiness. Though we should make ourselves happy, others come along and help the happiness as well. When Corey came a long I was NOT looking for anything at all. I think that's when we find the best kind of love is when we aren't looking for it and it just comes a long. I never thought I'd find some thing so great so fast but I'm glad I have and thank God for him every day. I don't have to tell any one how great he is with Kendrix because he just shows it no matter we are or what we're doing. I am not the only one who has found happiness either. Micah is now in a relationship too and couldn't be happier for him and her. I hope she's as good with Kendrix as much as Corey is with him. I think it is important that Kendrix knows the situation and what's going on and be mindful that he is still only 2 years old. We are all happy now and that's all that matters.

It is hard for me to let Kendrix go with his dad any where but that's just a mother thing. I'm used to seeing him 24/7 and now that the divorce is going through it has to be some compromise. I'm the one that has to get that through my head. I'm just glad Kendrix will have multiple happy families to go to.

God has a plan for all of us and his dad and I wasn't in His plan. Now we just have to go a long with our lives always keeping God first and being mindful of Kendrix also. Thank you to all who have stood by our sides through every thing and have never judged us. Co parenting isn't the easiest thing in the world to do but you gotta do it with plenty of communication. It does some times put a strain on some relationships because some do have to put their input but it's always gonna happen that way no matter what. We just try to do the best we can because we can't please every one.

Thanks to all again who understand every thing and stand by us.

Much Love
~K

Life has a funny way of working itself out.

I've had a lot weighing heavy on my mind lately. Lots of random things.

First off, I can't believe Kendrix is already 2! Where in the world has the time gone?! Seems like just yesterday I just found out I was having a boy. Now he's talking like crazy, singing along to songs, and always smiling and laughing. Time sure flies when you're having fun raising a child! Now time for the potty training to somewhat begin. (oh boy)

As I looked back on the last post I posted, I've realized God has a wonderful plan for me. I may not understand it yet but I know I trust in him. Things may not always be as easy as I make it out to be but I know with God's help I can do anything. Thinking about this tough time I'm having just makes me realize how much stronger I'm becoming through it. To me, that's all that matters. Pages have turned and there were lessons learned. 

It takes a lot for someone to admit they're wrong. It also takes a lot for you to forgive someone that has done wrong to you. Forgiving people will make you so much stronger in the end. When you truly forgive someone, you never bring it up again. Forgiveness is never easy.

Trust is never easy either. Once you've lost someones trust, it's the hardest thing ever to get back. I'm not saying impossible but it's pretty hard. If you never give them a reason to not trust you in the first place, then you'll never have to worry. I used to have a lot of trust issues. Now I got the point of I trust you till you give me a reason not to.

When you fall out of love with a person, don't ever give up on love. Just because someone didn't know how to love or hurt you or whatever, don't give up. God has amazing plans a head of you. Even though you think the factors in your life may keep you from love, they won't. If someone loves you and actually know what love means, they will love everything about you. (yes ladies, even the flaws) 

My life had a funny way of working itself out. Kendrix and I are completely happy. I hope Kendrix's dad feels the same about his life. Though we may not be together any more I still hope the very best. That is true forgiveness. 

God knows what he's doing, so TRUST in Him.

Much Love,

~K

Is It Wrong of Me?

I could sit here and watch cartoons with Kendrix all day if I could. Watching his innocent little mind play along with Mickey Mouse Clubhouse makes me so happy. He's learning so much every day. I still can't believe he'll be two in two months.As he gets older and shows more love for me each day, it makes me realize a lot.

Sometimes I start to miss good morning and good night texts from someone special. Sometimes I miss going out on dates or snuggling with someone. I sometimes miss the thought of someone loving me for who I am or what I've been through. I start to miss the thought of being cared about by someone else. 

As I start to think about these things I think to myself, I'm being selfish. Selfish for thinking about my own needs before my sons. Is it wrong of me to think I'm being selfish for that?  He doesn't need people in and out of his life. I couldn't do that to him. When I start to miss these things, I know Kendrix does the majority of those things. He loves and cares about me unconditionally and I couldn't ask for anything better! In the future things may change but who knows. I like it being just him and me.

Does that mean I stay cooped up in a house all day just sitting here? Oh heavens NO! I've got a wonderful job that allows me to stay home with Kendrix. I take them places like the zoo, swimming or even climb a mountain.We're trying to sell my moms house right now so the house always has to be clean and with kids we all know that's never easy. I have wonderful friends that I go and do things with or just hang out with them. I also try to go to the gym whenever possible. I'm working on myself right now and always taking care of Kendrix so when would I have time for a guy right now? Not saying things can't change but I'm saying I'm very happy and content with my life.

God has a plan for me and all I can do is trust in Him. I may not ever be able to figure out the outcome or why something happened but I know it's all in His plan. Some days the path is bumpier than others but I pray for strength to stay on the right path. Times of struggle is a time to get closer to God. I know he has a marvelous plan for me and can't wait to see it unfold.

Proverbs 3:5

  Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.




Much Love,
~K

Its been a while!

Things in my life the past few months turned hectic really fast. Faster than I thought humanly possible. I am now a single mom to my amazing son. I will not go into details as to why his father and I didn't work out but if you really wanna know, you may contact me. I did what I thought was best for my son and me. I never thought I would have the strength to leave but what he was doing was so wrong. I can honestly say though, that I am much happier being back home in Oklahoma where I am loved and wanted.

Kendrix and I moved back about a month ago and since being back things have looked up for the both of us. I got an amazing job opportunity that I'm very blessed to have. I watch two other kids besides my own at my house. I am able to stay at home with Kendrix and get paid for it. Kendrix gets along with both kids very well, which I was never worried about. All the kids are very kind to each other and they make it easy to watch them. We have been trying to get my moms house sold so she can move in with my grandparents and Kendrix and I will get an apartment! God has given me amazing strength to get through this tough time. 

I never thought I would ever be a single mom. God had a different plan for me in life and all I can do now is trust him. In doing so I've been very blessed since being back. When you look at your life, make sure you never take anything for granted because it can be gone in the blink of an eye. I'm very thankful for my family and friends that have helped me though this transition in my life. I cannot thank y'all enough. I have mended friendships I never would've thought could be mended. I've gone to 4 Thunder games since being back and loved every minute of it. I've also been going to the gym when Kendrix falls asleep at night. Things have really been great for us. All of these things would've never happened if I would've never left. I'm not saying I'm thrilled that things happened the way they did, but there's nothing I can do about his actions. I now only have to worry about my own and my sons.

 

Thank you everyone for your kind thoughts and prayers being sent our way. Thank you also to everyone that has been behind us every step of the way. Y'all are awesome!

 

Much Love!

~K&K

This won't be me anymore..

To be honest, my week was far from perfect. With that being said, I am FAR from perfect.

I learned in the course of this week I can be very selfish. I am sharing these things because I don't want any of y'all to ever go down this path. 

When it comes to my marriage, I don't think about my husbands needs some times. I jump to conclusions way to fast and easy. I probably nag more than I should. Maybe I ask too from of my him. I try to pick fights which I can honestly say I do not know why. It solves NOTHING. 

Seeing all these typed down, I feel terrible. I have got to learn from my mistakes. Which it can be done people. I know if I want to keep my marriage lively and well, some things have got to be done. Am I saying I have an awful marriage? No. It just some times can be dysfunctional at times. Am I saying I'm a bad wife? No not all the time. There are just things I know I can work on. Am I the only one that has to work on things? Probably not but I would never tell him what needs to be changed. Never try and change a person. 

In my eyes, my husband is perfect. Maybe even too perfect if that's even possible. Yes we both make mistakes but who doesn't? We just start to lose ourselves and don't really know how to start back up some times.  

Some thing I need to work on is loving more like Jesus does. Unconditional.Forgiving. I need to start praying more and getting my nose in my bible. I just always want every one to be happy especially when it comes to my marriage. I am very privileged to have a husband like mine. He lets me stay home with our son and watch him grow. He understands that I don't really know how to cook but eats my food anyways. He does little things that just make me fall in love with him all over again.

We were away from each other for two weeks and that contributes to my over reacting and things like that. I just start to miss him and hope he feels the same way I do. That's what scares me most is the unknown. I just have to trust him and trust God that every thing is always going to be okay.

With all this being said, don't judge me. I'm a young married mother with a hectic life. I will continue to strive to be the best wife and mother I can be. I refuse to be the reason why our marriage ever suffers. Don't be the reason for anything. Fights, drama ANYTHING. Do your best to be the best for him. You made vows so cherish them and abide by them. Love your spouse like The Lord loved his son. Don't forget to give him attention just like you do your children. Be the one he fell in love with.

Much Love

~K Thompson

God Has Blessed Me

First off, it's cold. Don't really know if I can think straight this morning. Just kidding. I gotta cause it's only Kendrix and me in the house. My mom finally comes home tomorrow and I'm so excited! I've missed her so very much. Praying for a safe trip back.

Lots of things have been on my mind today. As I'm watching my sweet innocent child run around messing up the house that I just cleaned, God has blessed me with him. God has blessed me with lots of things. A wonderful family, amazing husband, and some pretty awesome friends. The life that Micah and I live, is anything but ordinary. We travel back and forth between Oklahoma and Texas a lot. Probably more than we should. Micah takes on a lot down in Texas. Not only does he have a family he has to care and provide for, he has a 15 hour class schedule, study hall in the evenings, and football on the daily. If you're wondering how our schedules go, it goes something like this. Monday's we're pretty lucky because he has a night class from 6 to 8:50. During the day we pretty much have him to ourselves except for work outs every week day from 12:30 to around 3. Tuesdays and Thursdays he has class from 8 to about 11. Study hall Tuesday nights and Wednesday nights. Kendrix gets naps based around his schedule because I try to ensure Micah gets as much time as he can with Kendrix. On Tuesdays at our library they have a session called Toddler Time. Kendrix and I go to that with one of our friends who has a little boy a few months younger than Kendrix and her husband was also on the football team. Micah also has a couple of online classes. I also have two online classes I'm taking. I usually do my homework when Kenny takes a nap or when every one has fallen asleep at night. So there is a little day in the life of us. Pretty hectic huh?

Although we have a crazy life, I wouldn't trade it for the world. I love being down in Texas because it's our own life. We don't have any one to depend on but each other. Not our parents just us. I've grown up so much since I moved down there a year ago. Most teens my age don't move that far away from home unless they go to college. I did it so my little family could all be together. Like a good mom and wife should do. God has blessed me with this opportunity to grow stronger in my faith and stronger with my little family. I thank God every day for my husband, son and family. My life is awesome and I owe it all to Him.

Don't forget to thank God for the things you are thankful for. 

Thank you all for reading and supporting us.

Much Love,

~K

Just a little silly pic of us :)

A Letter to Our Son

Even though you're standing in front of me crying because I won't let you have the phone, I love you.

Our lives changed forever on July 24,2012. You came into this world at 8:10 AM by a c-section. Daddy and I were nervous about the c-section but we knew we had to get you into this world somehow. When you came into this world, I had know idea you were as big as you were. 9 lbs 14 oz and 22 in long! You pooped and peed before they could weigh you so I think you probably were about 10 lbs even :) Every one thought I was carrying twins, but you are your dads child so you were gonna be big. When we first saw you, we were amazed. We couldn't believe that we made you. You were made of only our DNA. Daddy's nose mommy's lips. You were perfect. 

Watching you grow has been amazing. From your first smile to crawling at 6 months to walking to talking! It's hard to believe you're a year and a half old. Having you as a toddler is so much fun. Every stage brings something new and it's what keeps us going. You love football just as much as your daddy. Every time you see the North Texas eagle, you say football regardless if it has a football on it or not. You learned how to say North Texas at the Bowl Game for daddy's team. You amaze me how much you pick up so fast. Hopefully you can pick up potty training when we start next week. :) 

Kendrix DeWayne, daddy and I hope you grow up big and strong and learn to love God as much as we do. We love watching you pray. Amazing to think you learned that so quickly by watching daddy and I pray. You are the light of our lives and you completely saved us. You are such a strong willed little boy and I hope that carries on as you grow. You're independent at times but you love your cuddles too. That's mommas favorite thing :) Thank you for being the best little boy we could ever ask for. Thank you for bringing so much joy to ours and other peoples lives. It's hard not to smile when we are with you. Daddy and I hope we can continue to be the best parents we can be for you. Words can't even begin to express our love and care for you. Our families love you too. Gammaw, Granny, PaPa, Poppy, every one loves you. Even the dog :) Always keep that dimple smile on your face and never stop being you. 

WE LOVE YOU & don't you ever forget that.

Love,

~Daddy & Mommy.

When in Doubt...

Pray it Out & Turn to God.

 

Are you having a tough day or can't seem to stop stressing over little things or even big things? I know I do sometimes and have family that does a lot. My solution, turn to God. Give him your problems and have faith that He will help you through. Praying all the time helps me in the worst of situations. I have anxiety really bad. Especially when Kendrix came along. I had never been more scared to do certain things in every day life. It had been a time that I forgot about my faith. I forgot about the one who helps me through so much. I'm pretty sure I had never prayed so hard. Praying hels eliminating your mind from the things you're worried about. Trust me.

 

The Lord died on the cross for you and me so we may have hope of eternal life with Him in Heaven. He wants us to strive to be more like Him every day. Praying, praching His word, leading people to Him. He is the reason we are even here people! Your little child sitting in your lap or playing in his room? God blessed you with that child. He blesses you every day with things you don't even realize you've been blessed with! Your husband or wife? Did you ever pray when you were younger to find the one you've been searching for for so long? I know I did. Especially when it felt all my hopes and dreams were just shattered. I know my husband and son are blessings from God and I thank Him every day for sending them to me. They saved my life.

 

Your little ones will benifit from praying too. My little Kendrix prays all the time with us. It brings tears to my eyes because I know he learned that from watching me. Kids really do watch every thing you do.

 

But seriously people. People need The Lord and it's up to us to lead them there. Praying daily will help you in your day to day struggles. It's actually very theraputic to know you always have someone to talk to. He doesn't talk back but he sure listens. Give Him all your problems and he will help you through them. Don't stray away from the one who gave you life. Be strong in your faith. You know what you're doing. I promise!

 

Much Love

~K